hello! im switching to:
http://dreamwishhopepray.tumblr.com 

because lj been giving me technical problems.

when im busy i tend to jot down my little feelings.
and this week. i had lotsa complains to be made.
i complained to various ppl in my life. but u know its not enough until i write it down here right?
hahaha.
i cant stand it when ppl do things so last minute.
knowing the fact that everyone gets busy during the last week of school.
i got 3 presentations!!
i have been pushing for some things to be done but it never does.
why? thanks to "awesomest" group mates lo.
im so pissed seriously at some ppl. not all.
they seriously damn selfish. for real.
i dont know why, they like super thick skin that they not contributing at all.
but like they wont paiseh at all for not doing the group project.
worst still, when some ppl who only does some little fucking ass work,
the whole group like WAAA at it.
i somehow feel like im a servant to them lo.
like whatever i do right, they never appreciate!!! like take it for granted that i will do.
the thing about me is that, i will do and want to do so that i can hand it in on time and its perfect.
flawless work. which is why like im tanking everything now.
okayy not everything. but really i think i contributed most for that mod that group which has some pain in the ass people.
you got aw i dont have meh?
you got bizlaw report, i got bizlaw presentation and report okay!! 
and i got ltb presentation too.
nobody can beat my tight schedule for next week seriously.
its all the mods with presentation all squeeze into one week.
arghhh. sometimes i really dont understand la. why smu accept ppl like them.
so much for paying high school fees pls. in the end life's so bad because its as if u are the only one doing the entire project.
but u know what. if i did presentation alone, its soo much better honestly.
because it makes no difference whether i have groupmates la.
fuck off ppl. screw you.
if the project was an individual one, omg la i would have like so much time to prepare alr.
like dont need to wait till everyone got time to meet,
and dont need to re-do the shit that others submit for collation kinda thing.
sorry i think i complain too much alr.
u gonna say suck it up. haha.
but when it happens to you, you gonna rant about it too. definitely.

i know i shouldnt be sucha bitch but what to do.
i dont scold ppl in front of them.
i how nice. always smiling to ppl.
but i tell u, i seriously will chop them up if i can.
or just backstab them and tell my prof that they arent doing anything.
but again ah. people very superficial la! you look pretty abit, put make up, dress well
but give lousy work or dont do anything, or doing the minimal, oh then u are forgiven.
too bad la. i not pretty at all. so dont have such special treatment. :( 

im one angry girl man.


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im damn weird leh.
i can perspire in air con room when its so cold. lol.

anyway im in the midst of completing my aw rp.
i gotta jia you max. cos i needa finish it and then re-edit it like a thousand fucking times to make it perfect.
i know the hopes are not high but still i promise my darling that im gonna do my best.
and i also want to do my best if not i regret. and i hate that feeling.

tmr got meeting in school. how sad. sunday leh. oh in fact its ltr. haha.




Love, Monica

hey. im know i shouldnt be using the com right now.
but oh well. whenever the my laptop is near me i will be very tempted to use it.
so see. now im distracted away from my work.
hahahaha.
anyway today's a sat!!! & guess what?
i had bizlaw meeting the whole afternoon. how sad.
reached school at 11am. :( 
haha.. but anyway at least didnt waste my time totally la.
managed to discuss most of the cases alr.
so needa prepare slides now.
think the next 2 weeks will be mad rush alr.
hmm... i needa start working fast. do everything and complete within the weekends,
so at least weekdays i wont be that tired.
i still needa go for tuition on mondays and thursdays. :)
im not complaining really. although im gonna be busy and tired.
but i enjoy it. i mean i enjoy teaching my students. cute naughty students.
lol. anyway, i just fear for aw, cos its like so free & easy now.
& im like not working on it that often. :P
im gonna work on it ltr. hopefully smth comes out of my brain.
i hate it when i dont get things done!!!
omg and CT is sucha waste of my time seriously. argh.
still got visual rep wapiangeh!!! hahaha.

okayy. jiayou to everyone who feels stressed!

Monica :D

okayy, shall blog a while. :D 
its been tiring at school these days.
there's really alot of stuffs to be done.
and i cant stand it when ppl are just out there to give trouble.
i mean, hello we should be in this tgt right? 
really cant stand such selfish ppl!
argh.. i have 3 presentations to do on week13.
and all are major presentation!!
:( kill me man....
i have got bizlaw, ltb and ct presentation.
a day after the other.
i not sure if im gonna die that week.
but hopefully everything's like prepared before hand
and i just hope that everything goes smoothly.
im not that anxious for ltb. ltb's quite up there alr. my group's pretty awesome.
but for ct, i think i fear most for it. we just aint that prepared yet.
who knows la. maybe by next week we are up there alr too. haha.
for bizlaw, my main problem is that i havent read up on that chapter!
and my group's meeting this sat to discuss.
we kinda cheat la cos we took the case from someone else that was under the same prof last sem.
and apparently he doesnt change his cases! hahaha.
but still i need to master that topic first to present.
i will definitely study and read up on that chapter tmr!
when i have a fresh mind.
aw's been rather tedious now. its OTOT until week 13.
for now, i dont have lesson for AW, which means that i have to find time to work on my RP.
GG right! sometimes i can totally forget about aw. hahaha!

okayy enough of that whining. i know life's like that.
i just wanna do better than last sem. that's what i ask for.
pls god! guide me.

i have actually started giving tuition just this week.
and i must say that its not too bad.
my students are just plain lazy and hyper.
they talk alot and dont focus long enough.
but oh well. hope they like me as much as i like them.
haha! they are cute man! esp the p2 kid. hahaha.

even though my bf not around with me, but i still appreciate my life like that.
i know its stressful. its busy. its tiring. its brain-washing.
but but but. i feel so satisfied. because i gave my best that i can at everything.
although there are disappointments, but it definitely make me wanna do even better.
i hope i can push through this whole sem. 
i cant wait for my bf to be back. and i cant wait to go to ubc and my short trip to usa.

i must have faith right now. i know i can do it.
i trust god to give me that needed amount of strength.



Love, Monica

i just attended my cousin's ROM lunch :)
its was great except that the place was abit too hot.
seriously, the sun was shining so brightly just now.
i felt like i was melting!
but the food was great, though i didnt had much.
i drank more than i ate.
i just wasnt that hungry ba.
we took lotsa photos! i guess... from the way we snap snap and snapped!
hahaha. waiting for them to be posted on fb...

im still coughing... :(
its getting abit irritating. cos my cough is the very harsh kind.
dry and itch cough.. argh. annoys me....

anyway, im really so damn pekchek with my mum.
sometimes i tell her things, she just wouldnt listen to me.
arrrrrggghhh!!! she always think she's right whatsoever.
arrrggghhhh cant stand it. always make me so sian abt everything.
i think she never agrees to what i do.
even if its correct or good. fml.

haiss. darling's llke in taiwan right now.
so one month no loveeee.
how sad. hahahaha!
but actually now im rather busy so the timing's just perfect.
when he's back i will have time for him alr.
but still, i miss him alr!!! second day only.
like my hp no msg from him abit weird.
but aiya been through the last time round when he went brunei.
so i think its fine.
this year gonna be tough for us.
we are separated more than ever.
he's leaving for thailand in may.
& i will be away the whole of june.
i leave for vancouver before he comes back to singapore.
so its like 3 months not physically seeing each other...
although we can skype but still!! :(
but its my choice la. he always blames me that i have to go vancouver this yr..
LOL. how not supportive of it he is right... :( 


okayy now i need to focus on my bizlaw.
idk how im gonna pull through this week lecture of bizlaw.
with the preparation of bizlaw project going on.
like im supposed to handle both chapters at the same time.
argh. fml ttm.
i really dont feel like reading up on the next chapter.
its tedious ttm....
i want a break. but no no. break will come soon...
pray hard okayy that aw's gonna be good to me.
& i can write smoothly... argh i doubt so.

im rather down these dayss. too many things to think of.
& sometimes ppl around me just dont understand.
they just dont give in a little to make my life better.

BIZLAW I LOVE YOU. I WILL RMB YOU IN MY HEART.



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hello!
there goes my busiest day of the week...
LOL. honestly i had lotsa fun today during CT filming.
its just so funny to see ppl acting and stuffs.
and all the NGs! omg. shihan is damn epic.
he do everything also fail!!! lol.
anyway, hopefully i can finish the video on time and everything goes well.
needa get some potential grades man to pull up my GPA.
ok.
im sick. argh. cant stand it. of all times. !!!! 
!@#$%^&#(!#@*$#*!!!
lol. flu pls go far away pls. i hate you being near to me.
okay i needa sleep. tmr early day! 
wish me luck peeps. to tide over busy week and mad rush weeks now.
not forgetting the flu bug in me. :(

nights!